Hope This Motivates You

Hi,
Have you ever feel like you want to do something? Like you imagine if you do that thing it will be fun or maybe benefit you in some way? What will you do after that? Do that thing or keep on imagining how fun it will be but still lying down on your cozy sofa? Well friends, I think I that is what I want to talk about right now: A desire and how should we act about it.

OK, I'm not going to give a lecture. I just want to share my experience. This suddenly came into my mind since a friend asked me to to invite him/her whenever I want to do a particular activity. He/She said that he/she wanted to reach a goal and looked for a friend to accompany him/her. Well, in my humble opinion, if you want to reach your personal goal, no matter whether you are alone, you should push yourself toward that goal.

I can say this because I've been there before. I wanted to do this and that, but then I felt like I need someone to accompany me. I was shy, or not motivated if I have to do it alone. I looked for someone but I found no one available and end up doing nothing. Afterward, I felt regret for not doing anything.

Later, I tried to just do it (this is not an ad). When some kind of desire pop up in my head, I imagine what will happen if I do it. Mostly my imagination goes unreal lol, but somehow it motivates me. Then I will make plan and act according to it and see how it unfold.

Most of the time, I will eventually find another person with similar interest. This person then become my friend and Ta-Da, i am not alone anymore.

You may argue that I am an easy going person so that I can easily be friend with new person. Well, no, I am not that kind of person. I joined a swimming club for three years but I only have few friends there (and only one last until now, since we were from the same faculty). I participated in a business competition (I am not succeed at this one, was only trying lol) and met some people but barely talking to each other after I quit. I became a volunteer in an organization and now most of the active people in that organization are my close friends.

Probably my socializing skill improve as I grow up, but it could be because of many other factors that I eventually have close friends in new environment. What is important, that we should start doing the thing that we want to do. This maybe relate to the fact that 2017 is almost finish. We usually will ask to ourself, "what have I accomplished in this year?" Hopefully, we smile at the end after reflecting back, realizing that so many good thing have occurred to us this year (remember to be grateful for everything!!! It is positively impactful).

However, if you think that you actually can do a lot more, well, take my advice and start planning for 2018. Life moves on and that is what we should do. I will gladly help and maybe we can make our plan together, giving each other feedback to our plan.

I hope that after you finished reading this post, you will feel motivated. And hopefully we will always be a better version of ourself the next day we wake up!

Random Sunday Post

In the warm sun of Sunday noon, I want to try to write another post for my blog. I think my last one was quite blue and filled with sorrow. Let's cheer this blog up again.

Last week was my last week working for 2017, yeah! I can do whatever I want to do for the rest of this year. I don't have any plan to spend this holiday actually, but I think I can just meet up with friends or go to cinema and watch movies. I will have to go to a work meeting in Wednesday, but it is OK since I'm not going anywhere outside the city.

Oh I just remember that I have to do a review to my friend's essay! I will do that after I finished this post then. Well it's not like I am a scholar or someone expert in reviewing essays, I just happen to ever write such essay previously, so I thought that maybe my experience can help.  Beside, it is also a good feedback to me. Sometime I realized that I also needed to improve my writing when I was reviewing.

Oh yeah, I have been gaining quite a lot of weight lol. My round stomach emerged from inside my shirt, and my pants have to suffer as well. I am planning to routinely exercise during this holiday. Yesterday I ran about 5 km. Today I walk for 2 almost 2 hours. Hopefully I can consistently work out my body and lose some weight before 2017 ends. Even better if my stomach turn flat lol.

One last thing. I want to post as many writing as possible before new year arrived. Well it is one of my objectives, therefore I will try to achieve this one. I am struggling to come up with ideas, to know what I should talk about. I think one negative post is enough, no more sad post for this year. I need to brainstorm and look around, maybe other people's experience can inspire me and move my brain.

Well, I think that is for now. Nice 6 paragraphs about me speaking random stuffs that just pop around in my head lol. See you soon fellas!

A Thought

After a series of positive-vibe posts, I think I want to spill a gloomy thought which fills my head lately.

I turned 26 last September. And I am still alone.... or in particular single.... and lonely? Well, tonight I have to admit that I do feel lonely right now. Let's check around my circle. Oh wow, actually a lot of my friends are still single, just like me. I am not alone then. Then why I feel lonely? I wonder if they ever feel what I feel right now.

It is not lonely by means I have no family or friends. I live with my family, and there are always some friends that I can chat and meet right away. It is more like a longing. Desire to love and to be loved. To have someone that I can trust to share all of my stories. Or just to be there, accompanying me while I do my stuffs (I hope I won't regret sharing this later).

This feeling usually rise when I arrived home at night after working or hanging out with friends. After having fun outside, then I came home and found myself already filled with a lonely feeling. A sudden change of mood from happy and excited to sad and gloomy. Does anybody understand what I say and feel this one too????

I think as I get older, my thoughts get more complicated. I've been single for years, I used to think that I am fine without having any special person in my life. And I did do fine before. Family and friends were enough company for me. However, it is no longer work. Loneliness often crawl up in my mind at night. Some time sleeping can heal me, but there are times I wake up with that feeling still there.

"Find someone then." Well, thankyou for the advise. I've been on the lookout for that person for months, with no success until now (don't force me to tell the detail, I can't). "Keep improving yourself to be a better person, the right one will come sooner or later." I am by no means a mature and successful person, but developing myself is in fact the thing I am focused on right now. "You are 26, why you act like a high schooler?" If I could, I wish I can get over it. I even thought about living the rest of my life alone. However, I think as a human being, I can't help it. People need somebody else to give them attention. (Then how come I think I will survive living alone until I die???)

What do you think? Am I miserable? Or just merely exaggerating? Err... no no I won't kill myself, but yes I think I sound desperate. And I don't know what is the main point that I want to tell by posting this one. I just want to let the thoughts out, it is overwhelming.

I am writing this post in a cozy cafe, drinking sweet cold coffee. Currently the music in my playlist is Don't Go Breaking my Heart by Elton John (there is no hidden message by me telling you this one, the music is nice and inducing happy feeling). Consider this last paragraph as a bright and warm closure to this gloomy post.

Balikpapan, A Year Later

Hi!

You know I waste so much time just to think about how to open this post properly. Forget it I will just say hi (lol).

Guysssss this is mind blowing, be prepared. Do you know that November 2017 marks one year of me returning to my sweet little hometown of Balikpapan??!! Wow it feels like time flies very fast doesn't it? Hehe, sorry if you think that I am exaggerating, but I do feel like that is a big thing. I left my hometown in 2009 to continue my study, graduated and then gained some work experiences in several cities and workplaces before finally returned home 7 years later.

I thought that I won't enjoy Balikpapan as much as before I left. I made many friends (mainly in university) and I felt sad realizing that I won't be able to meet them easily anymore. I live in a separate island now and not a Saudi prince, can't afford to fly to Jakarta every once in a while. Moreover, I won't find skyscrapers, big malls stuffed with stores and people, amusement parks, music events, various tasty foods, KRL(!!!) in Balikpapan. I could spend every weekend differently since there are many things are present, particularly in Jakarta. Finally, I had to leave too many memories during my wandering years behind.

However, if you followed me on my instagram and check my stories (lol why I promote it), I believe that you have the same opinion as mine. Turn out that going back home gives me many positive returns. I made more friends, most from joining Muda Mengajar (thankyou MM I love you). I am also actively volunteering to teach English language to children, a new activity I never done before (this one thanks to MM too). I have more time to do things that I want to do, even it is just hanging out with friends at a local cafe. And the most important is, I have enough money to support my social life lol. I live with parents with foods always available, therefore I don't have to appropriate money to monthly room rent or daily food need, yaaay.

Hmm, let me be a bit more serious. After a year living here, what has changed? Well, actually, there is a major change. A total upgrade, maybe? I created some targets to be achieved in this year, and still working to achieve them. I joined volunteering activity (as explained above), just because I wanted to try something I never do before. Well interacting with kids is still a problem for me, but I am glad that so far some kids notice me and (I think) like me. It shows that I am not that frightening to kids lol. There were several months in which I routinely run twice a week. I stopped since Ramadhan but still run occasionally. I stopped running routinely because I had to focus on another big thing that happened to me this year, which I still want to keep it for myself for now.

What do you think? Am I changing? hopefully I am changing to a more positive person. Now, will it happen if I didn't move back to Balikpapan? I'm not sure, but if I think about the time spent to commute to work, I probably only have time to have fun during weekend. Unless I am willing to sacrifice my leisure time, there will be less time for me to work on my targets.

OMG the electricity in my house suddenly shut down! And it is midnight already, I should go to sleep. See you on my next post ok!

September 2017

Hello!

I want to post another story in this month, SEPTEMBER.
If you wonder why I have to mention and caps lock this particular month, it is because this is the month in which I was born :)

For me, the whole September is special, not only in the day I was born. I feel like this is my month. I feel grateful when the calendar move from August 31st to September 1st. Somehow I feel sad when my month has passed. Probably other people have the same feeling too when their birth month arrives and leaves.

Now, let's talk about what happened in September 2017.

In this month, I turn twenty.........(should I really mention my age??)....six! (there I've said it). My friend asked me how does it feel being 26. Honestly, nothing special lol. It is just a number. I don't feel like I am older. I become a day older every day so I guess that doesn't matter. I remember that I wished for having my own family before turning twenty five. But the reality is I am now twenty six and single, lol. Pathetic? Hmm... maybe... but I've made up my mind. I am now focusing myself on what I want to do and try to make it happen. I feel happy with my progress so far. I think I will post about things I have done in 2017 later, maybe in December or January. Regarding my love life, I think the one will come to me once the time is right. For now I just have to focus on being a better person.

Talking about being a better person, I am now one step closer to reach one of my lifetime goals. If you read my previous post about gratitude, I was talking about an opportunity. After about three months of overcoming my challenges, I received an announcement email that leave me speechless and feel extremely grateful. I read the email after Ashar prayer and felt nervous right away after reading the title. I read the email thoroughly and noticed a particular word. This word turned my nervousness to a sense of relief. I couldn't believe myself. I thank God repeatedly.

I come to a an understanding after I read the email. That whatever that I wish or want to achieve, I just have to keep trying to achieve it and keep praying to God to fulfill it. If I stop trying then there is no way the opportunity will be open to me. I have experience failures during the process, but finally God allow me to step further to reach my dream. I think it is true that if you want for something to be happened to you, then you should work your way to reach it. I hope I will achieve it in the end, please help to pray for me too dear friends :)

Do you think that I am more wise after reading my thought above? lol I'm kidding. OK that is what I want to share right now in this Sunday. Enjoy your weekend while it last people :D

Being Busy

Well,
My last post was around two months ago, I am sorry for my absence fellow readers *talking to my self*.

I was very busy, I worked during the day and created some difficult essays and studied ((STUDIED)) at night for the whole July, even in the weekends. Yeah there is something that I am currently doing and wanting to achieve but I prefer not to publish about it yet, so please pray that I will achieve it!

I was told that I have to create some essays and prepare myself for some tests in August. At first I felt like it was impossible to be able to accomplish all of those. But then I tried to just do it. I used all of the time that I had to make progress of those. Often I wished that I had more time to do them lol. If usually I play with my friends during the weekend, then at that time I decided to spend less time for it and did my essays instead. I visited a 24 hours fast food restaurant almost every weekend and stayed there until around 3 AM. Absolutely, I sacrifice a lot of my precious sleep time to finish those stuffs.

In the end, all of my effort was paid off. I finished my essays, studied for the tests and eventually took them. I submitted all of those on time and even had time to review and revise them. My essays were not perfect, I even failed in one of the tests, but I felt grateful that I have done my best.

After passed through that strenuous time, I can't believe I finally did it. I never been that busy and pressured for a very long time. Sometime I thought that it seems impossible and even considered to quit (glad I didn't!). I am an overthinking person, but I guess since I didn't have much time to waste then I just kept doing it and ignore my bad thoughts. My achievement proves that my previous this-is-impossible thought was wrong.

In addition, I feel grateful that for the whole month I utilized my free time well. I was very productive. I wrote essays and studied to achieve my goal. It must be because I had this goal and committed to it that I could ditch my laziness and work hard instead.

OK, I think that is what I want to share for now. I am still studying and hopefully I will have opportunity to improve my score for the test in which I failed. Wish me luck and see you in my next post!

Gratitude Post

Hi All!

It's probably the last day of Ramadhan (depend on Hilal sighting tonight) and I want to post something before Ramadhan passed.

As stated in the title, I want to express my gratitude because a lot of positive things happen to me recently.

Starting from my new job. I feel very grateful that now I am working here. I feel like I can work smoothly. I mean I know what to do with the problems and when I feel in doubt, I have team that can help me to find solutions. I feel like my time are used well not just wasted and waiting until 5 PM and then leave home.

And then, this year I spent Ramadhan in my hometown! Alhamdulillah. Probably already 3 years that I do it away from home because of work. Well it was not so bad because I think I already get used to it. Beside there are friends so I am not always alone all the time. Thankyou my friends!

Jabodetabek left so many memories for me but now that I am home, I must admit I can do a lot of things now. There are less traffic here, I can leave for work at 8 AM and arrived 10 minutes later... the same when I return to home. This means I have so much time to spent for my own purpose. Clean the house, wash-dry-iron my clothes, prepare breakfast (or sahur during Ramadhan)... well why I mention those stuffs? But anyway you got my point. I have time for myself not only at the weekend, but everyday! Well actually I believe I can do it as well even when I was still working at Jakarta, but I was often too tired after return from work :(

And last but not least, I want to be grateful for an opportunity that I can't share here. " Why you mention it if you don't want to tell about it?" Well I want to make a memory to remember that I finally get this opportunity, and I really feel grateful for this. I've been trying to achieve this, and in the last days of Ramadhan, my prayer is answered. Now I have challenges that I have to overcome, and hopefully I will pass! Aamiin.

Actually there are so many things that makes me feel that I feel so blessed this Ramadhan, but I can't properly pour my thoughts into words (I have to be more diligent in uploading posts so hopefully I will have better writing skills).

So that is it for now my friends, I hope I can see you again in my next post very soon!

nb: I created the draft of this blog around 5 PM yesterday, but in the end I finish it today.. after Idul Fitri prayer lol. so Happy Idul Fitri dear friends!

New Job

Hi guys!

OMG I didn't post anything last month! sad :(
This month almost passed so I have to share something.

Hmm… last time I told you about my job. How I felt about it. Generally I didn’t feel happy about it.

Well… I have resigned and now I’m working for another company. I’m still new to this position, this is my second week working here. I’m still having the same title but I feel very different now.
I have a team. I’m not working alone now. I have a lot of questions but I have my boss, my colleague or even my staff to help me to find the answer.
Yes, I’m not only having a proper boss and colleague in the same department, but also two subordinates working under my supervision. I never have this experience before and felt quite nervous about it. But things goes well so far… hopefully I will be a good boss for them. I still feel awkward to be called boss lol. I consider myself a team leader instead of boss.
My responsibility is more clear now. I have objectives that I have to achieve in a year. So basically whenever I feel don’t know what to do I just have to look at my objectives and see what can I do. It’s actually frightening me at first but then I look at those targets one by one and determine what to do, this help me to relieve my tense since I think I know how to achieve those. Now I feel I am really working! I feel very grateful that I make this decision. I’m happy leaving office at 5 PM knowing that today I have done my work.
Well I do mention that I’m still new, not even a month yet. There are still many things that I don’t know. Maybe in the future I will feel stress again.. but hopefully it’s a positive pressure that will develop myself and make me feel more confident/confidence (which one is correct?) in doing my job. But for now I will focus with the problem that I see right now. I already have some tasks waiting to be done. After all we should be more focus in the present time and worry less with the future, shouldn’t we?*

See you on my next post!

*I read that in an article and that really helps me to relax :)

March Almost End…. Curhat Post

Oh my March is almost finished and I haven’t post anything yet…. sad.

 

For anyone that don’t know.. I’m working as HSE (Health, Safety, Environment) Officer in a floating crane company.

My company’s business is transhipment of coal from coal barge to mother vessel. We use the floating crane to move the coal.

 

My responsibility……. I don’t really know my responsibility. Based on my job title, I have to ensure employees working in the floating crane are safe, healthy, and of course the environment is protected.

It is an abstract responsibility. I often find myself wondering what to do. Well if I think about it I actually have a lot of things that I have to do. But most of the time I feel like I don’t know how to do it. I try to do what I know but then I found a dead-end, huft. After that I will leave that and try to do other things.

 

I don’t think I’m lazy. If I know how to do things, I can be very focus. So I think my problem is I don’t know a lot of things, and I can’t find anyone that can help me to understand things. I am the only HSE in the whole company. So I have to think and do things on my own. Well I did ask help from other department but they are as clueless as me so…. *cry* I can ask general HSE things to my friend but when it comes to operation related then I will feel like “OMG what should I do”

 

I talked to my friend and he said to me that this is actually a good things for me. Since I am the only one the decision is on me (well this is not quite right since CEO is the one who take decision), and if I succeed to improve the HSE then it will be good for my career. Well…. hopefully I will succeed to do that. I was excited when joining the company but after 5 months…. I feel stuck :(

 

Sorry if this post sound like I’m not grateful for my job. I am grateful that I have a job… I should find more things to be grateful for other than that. Maybe that will motivate me to keep trying even when I have no clue.

Teaching Children at Rural Area #TnT9BidukBiduk

Whoa it’s the second month of 2017 already!

I should have uploaded three post this year :(

Well nevermind hopefully I can share more stuffs this month!

 

Well… now… what should I tell?

 

If you are following my instagram (if you have not, look it up and follow @ichalisme), you should have already know that I just went to Biduk-Biduk sub-district east of Berau district, Kalimantan Timur. There, I visited Kaniungan Besar Island and Labuan Cermin. Those places are beautiful, I’m feeling very grateful for this vacation.

But this post is not about the beauty of those spots or how to reach there.

(You can ask me privately if that’s what you want to know, I will share you my pictures while I was there lol)

This post will be about me, going to rural area, with strangers, to teach kids at the local elementary school.

 

The reason I went there was because I got accepted as volunteer for  1000 Guru Samarinda. Previosuly it was my friend Tiara who told me about this event and said that we should apply for it (so it was not my plan at all, but thanks Tir for inviting me <3). We were interviewed by the committee and we were both accepted! yeay!

 

The day finally came. We travelled  6 hours by illegal taxi from Balikpapan to Sangatta with two other volunteers that we just knew, Vari and Dwi, to meet other volunteers there. 6 hours was very fast, there was hole at many spots of the road, it was late night and raining! The driver seems didn’t care with what will happened to his car. Eventhough I was worried, I just slept and prayed that we will arrive on time and alive.

We arrived at Sangatta at around 4 AM and meet the others. At 9 AM we left Sangatta and the adventure started! I was placed inside car with six new people that I never know before. Going to rural areas is not new for me. I’ve travelled to places that need hours to reach, but this one was different because the road was not asphalt, instead it was mud. And remember with whom I went there? To sum it up, I had to travel for hours, enduring bad road condition, with those strangers *cry*

I was exaggerating. Turn out it was a very exciting trip! During our trip we greeted each other, talked, laughed, sang, even dance lol (just our upper body, we were inside a car) and of course photos and videos. I’m so glad to meet them. In fact, I was very grateful that I was together with them from the start until the end of my journey.

We arrived at our resting house late at night. In the morning after had enough sleep and prepared ourself, we drive another 2 hours to reach the elementary school where we going to teach. I said to myself, “OMG i'm really going to teach those children!!!”. We started by a ceremony (upacara) in the open field and introduced ourself. Then we moved to classes and started teaching. I was with two other volunteer, Epiphanie and Dwi, teaching Flora and Fauna of Indonesia. We had a discussion the  night before to plan the teaching but the reality was not going as planned lol. We taught them by showing the map of Indonesia and then one by one went to front of the class, picked one sticker of animals, and sticked it to the right habitat on the map (for example: Komodo sticker to Nusa Tenggara Timur). We also taught them their characteristics such as what they eat, how the reproduce, and whether the animal is on extinction.

After finished with the main subject, It’s time for Pohon Impian (Dream Tree)! We wrote our name and what we wanted to be in the future (cita-cita) on paper leaves and sticked it to the Pohon Impian. Not only the kids, but also us volunteers. I was struggling with what I wanted to be but then I put teacher since I remembered I wanted to be one when I was in Junior High School. Most kids wanted to be in the military, be a police, and one kid even wrote astronaut, amazing. Some didn’t know what to write so I told some jobs to them. One kid convinced to be a chef after I explained what a chef can do, I felt happy that she was inspired.

Last lesson inside the class was Heart to Heart session! We separated the kids to three groups and then we had a conversation. I had three kids, Arjuna, Silviana and Delon. I started our talk by a health promotion about how to have healthy teeth. Then we talked about their daily life. Delon live near the school but Arjuna and Silviana come to school everyday walking for about 30 minutes from their house. One of them has no parents anymore, so he live with his brothers and sisters. All of them have many brothers and sisters. I was confused because based on their story, they probably have step parents, that’s why they have many brothers and sisters (but again i’m not sure). I learned some dayak words (I forget it now but I still remember that eating in dayak is kuman :D). I saw their life is completely different from mine. But I could see from our short talk that eventhough they have such a life, they are strong kids. They didn’t show that they felt ungrateful for their life. They just live it. I think I should be more grateful for what I have :” After the session finished, I gave each of them a new schoolbag from our sponsor and a pencil case from me. It’s not much but I just want to give them something as memento and hope it will be useful for them :)

After the indoor teaching, it’s time to play outside!!! Thank God the wheather was good. We played together, volunteers and all kids. I even played running and catching those kids but really they are fast and agile (lincah). After outdoor game, it’s time to say goodbye. We took a group photos and said thankyou to all of them, the kids, the teacher, the whole school. In the end all the kids were happy, we were happy as well.

 

I feel very grateful that I can join this event. This is a completely new things for me. I never go on a trip with strangers before. In fact, I always feel awkward whenever I meet someone new. Then I had to teach children??!! I have no idea what to do at first. Teaching is not the thing I ever do… and the one i had to teach was children!! And not only teach but also have a heart to heart session with these stranger kids!! I am an awkward guy when meeting new people, have to teach which I never do before, and children??!! How do i suppose to do all of that at once *cry again* Well…. I just thought that I want to have fun, enjoy the time, try something new, and other happy thoughts. I survived until the very end, thank God!

 

When we left to Balikpapan, I had that feeling that everybody feel after saying goodbye. I felt sad. I thought about how happy I was with them, all the memories, and I had to come back to reality. We come from different cities (Samarinda, Balikpapan, Bontang, Palangkaraya, Palu and even Bandung) and be together for 3 nights and now we must part ways. Nothing we can do, I just said that I am very grateful to meet all of those (previously) strangers and hopefully someday we will cross path again somewehere.

 

Cheers to all volunteers and hardworking committees of 1000 Guru Samarinda Travelling and Teaching 9 Biduk – Biduk !

Miss you already XOXO

2017 2017 2017

HI!

It’s new year (yeah i know it’s already mid jan but so what) and I want to start posting regularly to my messy blog!
So I hope eventually my blog will have better look and also regularly updated.

Now what I want to say??

Okay, so never before in my life i make a plan for the whole year.
I did make plan last year but it’s still a scratch. I planned to continue study in 2016 so I applied to several scholarships and wished at Sep 2016 I will fly abroad to study.

That plan, ruined. I was desperate. It really feel likes you are on clouds and then suddenly you fall and hit the land. I already imagined and plan about what I will do during study and prepared myself for that but then BOOM sorry no scholarship for you this year *heartbroken*

Well that was last year.
This year, I start to make what people like to say : resolution. i prefer to use objectives. Suit me better *not important. What is different from last year, this year I determine my objectives, make plan how to accomplish it, and develop a personal monitoring sheet for the implementation of my plan. Do you understand what I am saying? If you don’t understand but you want to know, just chat me okay lol.

So maybe anybody wondering what are my objectives (correct my grammar please) for this year?
One of them is actually regularly posting to this neglected blog. I really like to post this kind of stuff even if maybe it is too personal and nobody care. But then since i seldom to write anymore I started to feel like I don’t have any idea what to tell. Now that I put it as one of my objective, hopefully eventually my writing will be better and  I’m not only posting personal stuffs but also nice to read stuff lol.

Think that objective is easy? Well I did said that posting to blog is one of my objective lol. The other ones are more time consuming, and I still trying to figure out how to implement those, and they are secret. Secret to public reader to be specific lol.
Now try to find your own target for this year and do it! 2017 is still a long way to go so it’s not too late to create one! If you like travel you can choose some places to travel this year and then go! Short on money? Well be realistic, maybe three destinations is enough for this year, choose the date, and make preparation including saving money!

Easier to said than done yeah? I feel it myself, that’s why you have to keep coming to my blog from now on to know whether I still stick to my post-blog-regularly objective (and others as well) :)

Phew, I guess that's it for first blogpost in 2017. I don’t know how to end this post honestly so I will just say see you again on my next post, hopefully it will be no longer than two weeks :D