Hope This Motivates You

Hi,
Have you ever feel like you want to do something? Like you imagine if you do that thing it will be fun or maybe benefit you in some way? What will you do after that? Do that thing or keep on imagining how fun it will be but still lying down on your cozy sofa? Well friends, I think I that is what I want to talk about right now: A desire and how should we act about it.

OK, I'm not going to give a lecture. I just want to share my experience. This suddenly came into my mind since a friend asked me to to invite him/her whenever I want to do a particular activity. He/She said that he/she wanted to reach a goal and looked for a friend to accompany him/her. Well, in my humble opinion, if you want to reach your personal goal, no matter whether you are alone, you should push yourself toward that goal.

I can say this because I've been there before. I wanted to do this and that, but then I felt like I need someone to accompany me. I was shy, or not motivated if I have to do it alone. I looked for someone but I found no one available and end up doing nothing. Afterward, I felt regret for not doing anything.

Later, I tried to just do it (this is not an ad). When some kind of desire pop up in my head, I imagine what will happen if I do it. Mostly my imagination goes unreal lol, but somehow it motivates me. Then I will make plan and act according to it and see how it unfold.

Most of the time, I will eventually find another person with similar interest. This person then become my friend and Ta-Da, i am not alone anymore.

You may argue that I am an easy going person so that I can easily be friend with new person. Well, no, I am not that kind of person. I joined a swimming club for three years but I only have few friends there (and only one last until now, since we were from the same faculty). I participated in a business competition (I am not succeed at this one, was only trying lol) and met some people but barely talking to each other after I quit. I became a volunteer in an organization and now most of the active people in that organization are my close friends.

Probably my socializing skill improve as I grow up, but it could be because of many other factors that I eventually have close friends in new environment. What is important, that we should start doing the thing that we want to do. This maybe relate to the fact that 2017 is almost finish. We usually will ask to ourself, "what have I accomplished in this year?" Hopefully, we smile at the end after reflecting back, realizing that so many good thing have occurred to us this year (remember to be grateful for everything!!! It is positively impactful).

However, if you think that you actually can do a lot more, well, take my advice and start planning for 2018. Life moves on and that is what we should do. I will gladly help and maybe we can make our plan together, giving each other feedback to our plan.

I hope that after you finished reading this post, you will feel motivated. And hopefully we will always be a better version of ourself the next day we wake up!

Random Sunday Post

In the warm sun of Sunday noon, I want to try to write another post for my blog. I think my last one was quite blue and filled with sorrow. Let's cheer this blog up again.

Last week was my last week working for 2017, yeah! I can do whatever I want to do for the rest of this year. I don't have any plan to spend this holiday actually, but I think I can just meet up with friends or go to cinema and watch movies. I will have to go to a work meeting in Wednesday, but it is OK since I'm not going anywhere outside the city.

Oh I just remember that I have to do a review to my friend's essay! I will do that after I finished this post then. Well it's not like I am a scholar or someone expert in reviewing essays, I just happen to ever write such essay previously, so I thought that maybe my experience can help.  Beside, it is also a good feedback to me. Sometime I realized that I also needed to improve my writing when I was reviewing.

Oh yeah, I have been gaining quite a lot of weight lol. My round stomach emerged from inside my shirt, and my pants have to suffer as well. I am planning to routinely exercise during this holiday. Yesterday I ran about 5 km. Today I walk for 2 almost 2 hours. Hopefully I can consistently work out my body and lose some weight before 2017 ends. Even better if my stomach turn flat lol.

One last thing. I want to post as many writing as possible before new year arrived. Well it is one of my objectives, therefore I will try to achieve this one. I am struggling to come up with ideas, to know what I should talk about. I think one negative post is enough, no more sad post for this year. I need to brainstorm and look around, maybe other people's experience can inspire me and move my brain.

Well, I think that is for now. Nice 6 paragraphs about me speaking random stuffs that just pop around in my head lol. See you soon fellas!

A Thought

After a series of positive-vibe posts, I think I want to spill a gloomy thought which fills my head lately.

I turned 26 last September. And I am still alone.... or in particular single.... and lonely? Well, tonight I have to admit that I do feel lonely right now. Let's check around my circle. Oh wow, actually a lot of my friends are still single, just like me. I am not alone then. Then why I feel lonely? I wonder if they ever feel what I feel right now.

It is not lonely by means I have no family or friends. I live with my family, and there are always some friends that I can chat and meet right away. It is more like a longing. Desire to love and to be loved. To have someone that I can trust to share all of my stories. Or just to be there, accompanying me while I do my stuffs (I hope I won't regret sharing this later).

This feeling usually rise when I arrived home at night after working or hanging out with friends. After having fun outside, then I came home and found myself already filled with a lonely feeling. A sudden change of mood from happy and excited to sad and gloomy. Does anybody understand what I say and feel this one too????

I think as I get older, my thoughts get more complicated. I've been single for years, I used to think that I am fine without having any special person in my life. And I did do fine before. Family and friends were enough company for me. However, it is no longer work. Loneliness often crawl up in my mind at night. Some time sleeping can heal me, but there are times I wake up with that feeling still there.

"Find someone then." Well, thankyou for the advise. I've been on the lookout for that person for months, with no success until now (don't force me to tell the detail, I can't). "Keep improving yourself to be a better person, the right one will come sooner or later." I am by no means a mature and successful person, but developing myself is in fact the thing I am focused on right now. "You are 26, why you act like a high schooler?" If I could, I wish I can get over it. I even thought about living the rest of my life alone. However, I think as a human being, I can't help it. People need somebody else to give them attention. (Then how come I think I will survive living alone until I die???)

What do you think? Am I miserable? Or just merely exaggerating? Err... no no I won't kill myself, but yes I think I sound desperate. And I don't know what is the main point that I want to tell by posting this one. I just want to let the thoughts out, it is overwhelming.

I am writing this post in a cozy cafe, drinking sweet cold coffee. Currently the music in my playlist is Don't Go Breaking my Heart by Elton John (there is no hidden message by me telling you this one, the music is nice and inducing happy feeling). Consider this last paragraph as a bright and warm closure to this gloomy post.